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Monologue of a Pissed Off Student By: R.A.B. on 2/13/2003; 7:29 PM This class is so boring and yet, I feel like staying. Don't get me wrong though-I am not fond of school nor am I fond of my classes-well except for those subjects that are related to my major. I'm a lit major by the way, just in case you're wondering. Yes, you heard me right-lit-as in literature.I don't know what I want to do after I graduate; if I want to be a teacher, a professor,a librarian , an editor or any of those crap. I just took this course for one simple reason, one simple reason that they don't understand ,and that is because I like it, although one thing I'm sure of is that I won't be a couch potato when I grow up-I might as well kill myself.this way I won't be wasting any shitin' time by doing nothing and-getting notihing. I felt like staying only because it's a stupid prerequisite for me to graduate and I am one of those people who has this complex blend of personality and attitude, which is the "not caring about my life and yet I wanting to make something of" it attitude. Well, I was in this state of mind when the professor went out of the class. He was 10 minutes early when he left the room-and was 15 minutes late when he came in and all he did was talk about stupid stuff about the process of logic which, we don't really need, for logic is innate and cannot be thought.He's kinda' lazzy to for a professor.Sloth is such an epidemic here in the Philippines, successful person or not, this sickness creeps within the blood of almost every Filipino, even me, most especially me. Suddenly the entire surrounding just began to fade and then, it slowly turned pitch black and I felt that my body was floatibg somehow,floating into the vastness of the void, as if time had stopped and everything just seemed pleasant and nice-like the way I feel when I'm at bed everynight;then, I suddenly realized, I was sleeping. Damn it! Sleeping in class again! I've got Filipino Literature as my next subject, I don't need this! Crazy Philosophy class made me sleep! So I woke up just in time, the teacher was just about to open the door. During the Literature class I felt good and enthusiastic-the opposite of what I felt during my Philo class. I was alive, damn it, I really was! So the bell rang and the professor left us and it was time for us to leave soon. I was excited on going home, for in my heart hatred for classes like philosophy still prevailed and the fullfilment of subjects like Literature was supressed, so is the hope of making something out of my life. Maybe someday, I hope this would change, but I doubt it.
RE: Monologue of a Pissed Off Student By: R.A.B. on 3/2/2003; 11:30 PM R-E-P-L-Y! R-E-P-L-Y! F-E-E-D-B-A-C-K-S! F-E-E-D-B-A-C-K-S! Aaarrgghh! Lo..os..ing ...my...mind ...call ...am...bu...lance ...must... get... to... crack... house... and... stay... there... for... fif...ty... years... till... sa...ni...ty... re...cu...pe...rates. *Lost Consciousness*
RE: Monologue of a Pissed Off Student By: R.A.B. on 2/22/2003; 12:06 AM Ladies and gentlemen, R.A.B. is dead due to the severity of the depression you brought upon his soul by you guys not replying... *sobs* Wait stop the cryin'; crazy sonuvabitch rose from the grave! I heard he posted a new writing. I think it's entitled ROYGBIV. I also heard it is a poem. Man ALIVE AGAIN!!!
RE: Monologue of a Pissed Off Student By: Chie Theresa Fujioka on 2/22/2003; 7:13 AM It seems, RAB, that you have too much energy for a pissed off student. Back in the days of Episcopalian happiness, everything was dandy. My teachers, more or less, were competant, my workload not too great, my friends of an excellent loyal quality. Here, in the land of the rising sun, I attend a school costing almost $20,000/year, a high school at that. It is two hours one-way from my home, and so I must stay with another family. This family, albeit nice, is Japanese, and we are rather awkward. My room is the size of a closet, my desk smaller than those in a classroom, and I have no heater, nor internet. So I go to a friend's house nearby, but the only problem is that I'm allergic to their cat. I try to get used to that because I'd rather be sneezing than freezing, no? Not only that, but I know more than several of my teachers. One of them has never taught the subject before. I stay up until 2-3 in the morning doing work, and then have a fitful 5 hours of sleep, wake up and drag myself to school. I eat toast and milk for breakfast. I eat fried foods for lunch. I am not allowed to use the excercise rooms because they are faculty only, or else I must be with a faculty member. But the only one who will sponser me will only do so if no one else is there. Which is never. Why do I want to use that room? because it has two rowing machines, and I want to practice for college when I will join the crew team. But no, I don't even get to exercise. What else drives me nuts about this place? Well, I finished all of this school's math courses, so I am taking a course on 3D-calc from stanford. These things aren't cheap either. Total, I pay $1000 more. And the school won't pitch in a yen, despite the fact that my dad is 4 years away from retirement, which will be when I go into graduate school, and he is already digging into my college fund to pay for this "great international" school. Sure I got a 12500$ scholarship to my first choice college, but the total cost is 36000, and we can only afford 10000. 36000-12500>10000. Not only that, but my boyfriend of over one year recently broke up with me, which although emotionally, I've taken well, I still am taking it emotionally and I find it hard to work or concentrate on this waste of time, I call highschool. Not only that, my closest friend here has a new boyfriend, and although she's getting better about it, everytime I'm with them, I'm not only a third wheel, I'm a forgotten third wheel. And we used to be best friends. Another friend of mine suddenly got cold towards me the other day, and she wouldn't tell me what was wrong. I've basically had to remold my group of friends this year when I should have been enjoying senior year with my friends. So, you have to understand that when I hear about you falling asleep during a lecture on logic (which i love by the way) I'd consider that a *good* thing since I seem to be lacking sleep. Sorry.
RE: Monologue of a Pissed Off Student By: R.A.B. on 2/22/2003; 10:34 AM Chie, you seem to be caught in a bad time right now. Nothing that a good, indept writing can't fix though. Try to get it out. Throw away your pride or whatever is holding you back. Write, from within you're soul.(sounds like a clique, but it's darn right!) I can't comment on the boyfirend part 'cause I'm sort of an anti-social and I haven't the slightest clue on how to handle a relationship 'cause I haven't had any girlfriend of some sort my entire life for I'm not so fond of commitment.(No,I'm straight.I'm not gay.) As for my friends, I have quite a few number of friends, I choose them carefuly, you know the ones with hot wheels, latest cellphone models and great signiture clothes...HA...got you! Seriously, I choose the persons that I try to get friendly with you know because true friends and loving parents are your anchor to hold on to life when you feel like letting go of already and it seems that I've always made fine decisions. I go to The University of Santo Tomas for my schooling, if you're not familiar with it I'll tell you, it's the oldest university in asia which is run by Dominican Priests. I am majoring in literature, although I haven't made up my mind on what specific area I would be in. I am torn between creative writing and teaching. Anyway, my tuition costs not that much 'cause, let's face it, Literature is not a demanded decree here in this Era. I didn't take it though because it was cheap because my parents can afford to even send me to medical school if I wanted too,although were not rich just in the middle class, but, I'm the kind of guy who wants spiritual fullfilment in life. Sometimes money isn't just the center of the universe. I hate logic because the professor is a big bore unlike my two tough literature professors at the momment. Lastly ,SLEEP for chrissake, you're not Holden Caulfield(Catcher in the Rye character,god I love that book!) are'nt you? Sleep, for a time, gives you solitude which , I think, is one of greatest treasure that an individual can have. So SLEEP. Have a goodnight. And by the way, I'm only pissed off on the professors who aren't supposed to be teaching, those who lacked the qualities to inspire their students to do better.
RE: Monologue of a Pissed Off Student By: Chie Theresa Fujioka on 2/22/2003; 12:33 PM Thanks for your adv, but these be things I alrady doing. Pride? I do write from my soul. very much so. Just lately, my souls been silent. maybe because i gave it away. I pick my friends carefully, and they've alwayd been good. Dorothy knows that. Matt 1 &2 know that. Gin, Jen, Coxbert, peej, neal, I love em all. But this school... is poison. Plus I have some... self... confusion which I have to work out. I guess I'm just tired of my friend all leaning on my for support and not even giving me the benefit of having fun with them. And money? No, money doesn't matter to me. It's whether or not I get a good ed. It's whether or not my parents eat good food, wear clothes, and don't skimp out on comfort just so that I can spend it all in four years. I love my parents a lot, and I'd never do that to them. Caulfield... memories of jw. you read that thing I wrote? I know sleep is good, but I can't bring myself to do it. I hate going back to the hole i live in. I hate sleeping in a cold bed. I hate school. I want to learn. not slave. I just wrote all that b/c I wanted you to understand that I can't read your ... monologue, without getting a little annoyed that (it sounds like) you think you have it bad. I can handle all this. It's just not fun, and I need something other than a reminder of how bad life is to keep me hovering in my normal position of vaguely weird creator of chaos.
RE: Monologue of a Pissed Off Student By: R.A.B. on 2/22/2003; 5:02 PM I don't really know how bad you have it but I feel the same way as you do , I also want to learn and not to slave. Sometimes you just can't get it all. *sigh* By the way ,I read Evan's reply to you on "That Thing I Wrote", I haven't read about it though before I wrote my message,but , are you really that psycho so that you've been associated to Holden Caulfield twice...ha ha ha...what's your secret? *kidding* "And I need something other than a reminder of how bad life is..." I think that line inspired me to come up with an essay,it's time to let go of the anger sometimes, thanks.
RE: Monologue of a Pissed Off Student By: Richard Davidson on 2/23/2003; 9:18 AM Speaking of Evan, where is the young man? I've always enjoyed his work, and haven't seen anything new by him for awhile. Anyone?
RE: Monologue of a Pissed Off Student By: Daryl Del Rosario on 2/27/2003; 3:34 AM Well, at least we have Logic class to give us time to do poetry and stuff... You should post all your writings in your Logic handout you know.
RE: Monologue of a Pissed Off Student By: R.A.B. on 2/27/2003; 4:02 AM The site can't manage to hold everything I've written in a single day. Some of them sucks anyway so why bother.
RE: Monologue of a Pissed Off Student By: R.A.B. on 2/27/2003; 4:11 AM Daryl, Andrew Guerrero is not active in this site anymore, what could have happened to that classmate of ours in the U.S. anyway? Did he tell you what state he would be staying? Anyway , we lost one of the best writers in our class when he went away. Also I've lost a debating buddy for literary styles, hope we see him again in the distant future.
RE: Monologue of a Pissed Off Student By: R.A.B. on 2/27/2003; 4:17 AM Oh also I'd be leaving in a year or two for New Jersey, our papers for immigration would be ready by later this year. Anyway I might still comeback and finish my studies here in the Philippines so it's no big deal. Got to sign off now, Theology assignments are beginning to pile up on my desk better start working on them, I am not that crazy over the Idea of flunking Theology 2. Even though the professor's a heinous bitch.
RE: Monologue of a Pissed Off Student By: Daryl Del Rosario on 2/27/2003; 4:24 AM Aaargh! Now there'll be only be fewer than 5 guys in our section! Yeah, Andrew said he's going (gone) to Texas, I don't know where there though... Whoa, Transformers Movie theme playing in my head right now...Better enqueue it in Winamp...
RE: Monologue of a Pissed Off Student By: R.A.B. on 2/27/2003; 5:41 AM Transformers? what the heck!
RE: Monologue of a Pissed Off Student By: R.A.B. on 2/27/2003; 6:20 AM You turned your back Daryl, I'll knife you, =/==(-_-)=> Tsak! Cool pic message huh. He he he.
RE: Monologue of a Pissed Off Student By: Daryl Del Rosario on 2/27/2003; 9:33 AM That's a recycled sig! It's from CS! *makes a reflex save* 14+7=21=save *attack of oppurtunity* 19+9=28(critical) *rolls for damage* 1d8+3=7+3x2=20 hp damage on R.A.B.
RE: Monologue of a Pissed Off Student By: R.A.B. on 2/27/2003; 7:02 PM Damn! Don't use Dungeons and Dragons terminology on me. I'm not that good at it. Anyway, FIRE IN THE HOLE!
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